I am feeling fat. And lazy.

I read that Wen was complaining about her sagging boobs. Maaann, what can be worse? I'm fat. My boobs are sagging too. Arrgh, and the worst is, sometimes one is bigger than the other. Arrrgh.

I think it is more than two months since I last went for yoga. It's lots of ice-cream and junk food lately. Sigh. When one hits the big three, there is no more turning back. The fats just creep up quietly and sticks there for a long time. Yucks.

I really need to do something healthy. See my tummy? Someone actually thought I was having another baby. *sniff*

Breathe in deeply .... hold ....

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Life was a bit depressing lately because of all the hoohah over a certain matter. I was quite disappointed. Really really quite disappointed. If you'd ask me, I'd be very happy to pay for it, if I can get the most up-to-date ones as well as good quality of course. Monopoly is just tyranny. In this day and age too. Can't we just have a peaceful hobby?

Anyway, I'm still feeling a little blue over the whole matter. Where's my psp? How else can I destress? Maybe can grab PM out one of these days and blade with her. She asked me but how can I with my boy? *sigh*

Speaking of which, I signed my boy up for this most atrociously expensive enrichment class. After speaking to a neighbour who mentioned something about dunnodunnowhat school, dear hubby and I popped down to have a look, and somehow got persuaded into paying over a thousand dollars for a twelve hour lesson. Hmm, I'm still feeling a bit surreal over this thing. What right-brain training? Don't really need actually, but I guess I was just feeling a little bit guilty for not spending enough quality time with my boy. He is growing up so fast, and I don't know how to teach him, how to play with him etc. I think I lack the patience, and I just let him play with all those toy cars. *sigh* Sometimes it's so hard to be a mother. Well, hopefully this money will be well-spent because I get to learn alongside him. :)

The other reason being I think my poor boy is feeling very lonely and doesn't know how to socalise with other kids. Hopefully this will let him mix around more with kids his age. When he sees other kids, he becomes so shy and twiddles his thumbs. Poor him, no cousins to play with. Or little kids. The neighbour girl is a bit violent. My poor baby got smacked on his head when he refused to return her her toy car. He was shocked and cried a bit. But after she got canned by her mom for doing that, he pitied her and quickly returned her her toys. Later when I asked him if he still wanted to go over to play with her, he said 'dunwan!'. Whoops. :P Then again, he doesn't want to share his toys with her when she comes over too. haha. Kids are so funny.

Ohh ... something to look forward to ... hop hop :) Lunch with Min. :) Dim sum. yum yum. :)

Anyway, I figured that I haven't been going for yoga, so that saves quite a lot of money. All the exercise I get is from carrying my boy up and down the stairs, and I didn't manage to get a slot for the bobbi brown make-up workshop. Wen didn't ask me to go with her. *sniff* *sniff* :( So that is some money saved. Not that I've been saving a lot. Just been spending on different things. *bleah* There's just so much things for a girl to buy!

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Have been watching some rented dvds with hubby. He borrowed three over the weekend. The first was something called The Last Dance (I think), the second was 300 and the third was some Japanese movie.

Hubby was quite impressed with the first one and he told me it was some award-winning show. I wasn't very impressed at all, especially when I saw that it was a 'raintree' production. I raised my eyebrow. Isn't that local? It's not that I have anything against local production, but I mean, how impressed can you be? In the middle of the movie, hubby asked me, 'Are you being tortured yet?'. I can't agree more. Oh man ... it was the worst movie I've every caught in my entire life! I thought it was some exciting Hongkong flick, got HK actors what, but the entire plot was sooooo lame. It was like trying to be some momento-wanna-be (but failed miserably), some matrix-wanna-be (but failed miserably too). I mean the still shots are ok-nice, but for goodness heavens, it's a movie, not some photoshots. Arrgh. And it is just simply so unreal. Spore is too clean. Too too too too damn clean. It send shivers down my spine. Maybe Stephen King can do a horror show, those fouth-dimension thingy, where the whole world is seen through filtered lens. And the story seemed to be written by some nine year old school kid. Well, that was what hubby said, and I damn well agree. Pretty arty farty with a big F. For failure. Actress is ugly. The HK actors with their dubbed voice grated on my nerves. The only redeemable feature is the chemistry between the two vetern HK actors, the police captain and the assasin. There is absolutely no chemistry between the lead actor and actress. And the little girl. Arrgh, can't they choose some cute girl? And what's with that one quick shot of some half naked old man with guitar and prostitute with nipple-piercing in S&M style? So absolutely unneccessary. It's not even a redeeemable feature. Maybe they thought it was so bad already that might help? Gross.

300 wasn't that great either. Lots of half naked men with rippling muscles, not bad actually, but close to 30 men rather than 300, and what's with that smooth black tight underwear? And another arty farty show. Rolls eyes.

Baby's awake. More critisism if I ever got time again.

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Finally one little thing that really make me really warm and fuzzy and proud of my dear hubby. He's in the news. In a good way. *beamz*

And that is the only incentive that makes us go out to get a copy of the newspaper. Heh.

Baby, 20 months

We are the indulgent parents all right. What to do? Only have one precious kid. I'm not sure if it's because of the guilt we feel because we don't really spend lots of time with him, or we truely in our hearts just want him to be happy, or simply because he looks really good in it. Whatever.

But here he is, aged 20 months, and he owns a German car. In the likes of Volkswagon, BMW, etc. A red sporty one which can go at a topspeed of 40km/h and take up to 80kg.


Yes, he's actually posing in it. And he smiled when I told him to. And he refuses to let anyone else sit in his car, although he was rather mild about it when we tried. He'd say: Papa, go away. Mama, too big. Go away. The neighbour girl came over and tried his car. He was so worried but was too polite to tell her to get lost. You should have seen his eyes go as big as they could get and he started wringing his hands. Good thing her dad told her to return the car and my boy quickly reclaimed his prized possession. Heh.

Ah, next time when he's twenty and asked for a car, we'll tell him he has already got one at the age of 20 months. So no more, eh?

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More milestones.

Took his toothbrush and started brushing his teeth himself. Refused to put it down even after his bath. I guess I needn't be worried about him brushing his teeth after all. Heh. Was a bit worried for a while though cos the last time I thought I saw him brushing the toilet floor with that toothbrush of his. Hmm.

More words.

Commented that 'man wears specs' loudly in the lift whilst said man was carrying his 26 month old boy who had a pacifier in his month. Said mom then pulled out said toddler's pacifier and exclaimed that so big still use pacifier. Said people in lift seemed impressed with my boy. *glowed*

Have started asking questions: Mummy doing what? Papa doing what?

Have started answering his own questions. That Ah Gong's car? Noooo.

Can answer our questions correctly: Is that Ah Gong's car? No. Is that Papa's car? No. Is that a taxi? Yes!!

Is very demanding: Sit car. Take off shoes. Then drink milk. Gugu go away. Close door. Mummy sit here. Then drink milk. Go upstairs. Sit on bed. Then drink milk.

I love him to bits. He's just so cute. :)

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Have been busying playing on my psp so have not been doing any other things else like blogging. Found this game called Puzzle Quest. It takes Yahoo! Bejeweled to a higher existance. If you loved Bejeweled to nutz like me, that is. It's simply amazing what the Japs can do. Turned a simple game into a RPG quest which comes with magic, hit-points, pretty exciting story-line. And you can even play with a real opponent. Like my dear hubby, whom I got him addicted. Who is also so extremely competitive. Humf. Am so not going to play with him anymore. Yep, we each got one psp to ourselves. :)

What's the next game going to be?

And the latest anime crazed is Denno Coil. The storytelling is simply amazing. I'm still reeling from the last two episodes, one which made me laughed till tears come to my eyes, and the other was so sad that I cried. Definitely a gem.

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So have been pretty anti-social. Should go out and meet up with old friends. Have not seen or heard from Wen for a long time already! I guess she must be busy with her studies. And I'm so busy with my boy. It's so hard to bring him out by myself nowadays. His table manners are so totally spoilt by my parents. So I've been going out for dinner with them. At least they can pander to him while I eat in peace. Relatively peace, that is.

In other news, poor baby has been sick again. Thankfully last night seemed to be the turning point. After he vomited onto me, that is. And twice diarrhoea today. Otherwise we'll have to be drugging him with his flu medicine again. This time he caught it from me, and I caught it at the clinic. Life sure is tough! We couldn't go to the zoo as we had wanted. The flu medicine works wonders though. He takes it and is completely knocked out for two hours at least. That's why I only took it for one night when I was sick. Don't have the luxury to sleep so much!

Sis-in-law was in town. To be more accurate, bro-in-law's wife that is. The whole family was in town. Exchanged some gossips with her and am assured that MIL has been extremely tame towards me. I guess I should be feeling lucky. And to think that she actually bought TWO sports cars for my boy. They're not that cheap too. Gosh, she wouldn't even spend that sort of money on food! I guess he's also extremely lucky. But then, back then baby was calling her auntie for a time. That might have made her rather worried. Now she got him to call her correctly. heh heh.

I was so thirsty after that MSG laden Ramen, that I drank coffee milk. Right now I'm feeling zombified. Brain's not working too well. Darn.